» [Journal][Taashti] Travelogue of a Techno-Shaman

[Journal][Taashti] Travelogue of a Techno-Shaman

[ Taashti's writing is a terrible mess. The occasional rude doodle graces the pages - Commanders, general folks from inns, auctioneers - complete with nasty commentary that's at least on-par with rebellious teenager talk. Pages containing engineering schematics are the complete opposite of everything else in the book: neat, tidy and detailed. After at least fifteen pages bitching about Hellfire Peninsula, idiot Death Knights, the smell of burning Tauren, the smell of wet gnomes, the general appearance of gnomes, the sensation of Fel Orc under one's hooves and all sorts of other nonsense, we get to the following: ]

NORTHREND

Northrend is where all current Alliance forces reside. It’s where everybody is and I’m not. It’s where all the good, meaningful, interesting work is and it’s not hot and maybe the spirits don’t scream there. That’s where I want to be.

I’m so, so, so, so, so, so, so sick of Hellfire and Outland and I ran away from here and it’s hopeless and trying to take it back is fucking idiotic.

My trainers said something about how if I want to progress I have to ~*let go of my paaast*~ and be more for ~*helping others*~ and ~*stop smoking*~ … and drinking… and swearing. Fuck that. And none of them believe that what I’m doing is right either, like technology is something we have to avoid at all costs or just I don’t know, it is evil and ew horrible don’t touch. It’s like … they have something amazing but they want to exclude all other amazing things, I don’t get it? And if I let go of my past I forget who I am and if I do that I forget mom and I forget Kishanti. I can’t forget Kishanti.

I can’t get her face out of my head either and it’s not like it’s her smile or anything it’s that last

[ A mass of scribbling graces the page immediately below the sentence, taking up approximately one paragraph worth of space. Frustrated scribbles. ]
And I don’t have a dad to forget.

I wonder if he’s in Northrend though, if maybe he lived through everything. If he’s not a big bad hunter like I failed at being maybe he’s a paladin or a kick-ass warrior or a shaman like me. Imagine that though, if he was like… if he electrocuted Scourge for a living, or if he commanded a legion of ghostly wolves and cool shit like that.

Maybe I’ll sneak on a boat and try to see it all for myself.

Aw man. Grandpa is totally gonna kill me.

I bet that’s where he is, too, chilling with the Kirin Tor and being old and trying to hook me up with dudes fifteen times my age or something.

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1 Comment

By Deimonia, March 11, 2010 @ 3:27 pm

I really love this entry. hard to put into words what I’m liking about it. I guess I can relate to the character, her frustrations, she’s experiencing currently. I’ve had some of the same emotions in Outland. I’m hoping to hear more about Taashti.